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The Purple Malice
Elara Dawn — Album 8.5: Elara Dawn

The Purple Malice

"Is on her knees tonight"

[Intro — Elara expecting the enemy, finding something else] She has heard the name her whole life

The Purple Malice The dark castle The one who commands the war

She follows the sight Through the fracture Through the years

She finds the castle

She finds the room

And she stops

[Verse 1 — the room, the woman kneeling] The room is very quiet

The candles are low The kind of low that means no one has tended them for a long time

And she is on the floor

Not on the throne Not at the window Not at the table with the maps

On the floor

And her hands are in her lap And her head is down And she is not commanding anything She is not planning anything She is just sitting in the quiet of a castle that has emptied around her and trying to breathe

[Pre-Chorus] The companions are outside

She can hear them Moving slowly Like people who are trying to give someone a room to fall apart in without being seen

They have not left

That is everything about them in four words

They have not left

[Chorus] The Purple Malice Is on her knees tonight The Purple Malice Is alone in the half-light And Elara Came here looking for the war And found a woman who does not want this any more than she does

The Purple Malice Has no army in this room The Purple Malice Has no power she can use Just the weight of what is coming Just the cost she’s already paid Just a woman on the cold floor Of a castle she is going to lose

[Verse 2 — Elara watching her understand what’s been asked of her] She is not crying

She is past the crying part She is in the place after crying Where the body just sits with the truth of the thing because there is nowhere else to put it

The battle is coming

She knows the battle is coming She has known for a long time And she does not believe in it She does not believe in the south being wrong Or the north being right Or the church Or the light Or the border they drew on the map she never agreed to

She only believes in this: if she does not go to the battle her people will go without her and die for nothing instead of dying for her

And she cannot live with dying for nothing

So she will go

[Pre-Chorus 2] And Elara watches her decide this

Watches the moment she stops weighing it

The moment the floor becomes the last floor she lets herself fall apart on

And she stands up

Slowly

And she is the Purple Malice again

And outside the companions start moving because they can feel the weight shift in the room

[Chorus] The Purple Malice Is on her knees tonight The Purple Malice Is alone in the half-light And Elara Came here looking for the war And found a woman who does not want this any more than she does

The Purple Malice Has no army in this room The Purple Malice Has no power she can use Just the weight of what is coming Just the cost she’s already paid Just a woman on the cold floor Of a castle she is going to lose

[Bridge — Elara’s recognition, the shattering] She knows this floor

She has been on this floor

Not the castle floor Not this stone But the floor inside the chest Where you go when you have understood the full cost of the thing and you cannot make it smaller and you cannot put it down and you cannot go back to not knowing

She was on that floor When she understood what the church had made her

And she is watching a woman who was made the same way

By different hands Toward a different weapon But the same making

And the worst part the part that undoes everything the part that the church and the council and the Riders and the Seven never wanted her to know

is that this woman kneeling on the cold floor of the castle they call evil

Did not choose it either

[Pre-Chorus 3 — barely holding] And Elara thinks:

I was sent to stop you

And then she thinks:

Who sent you to this floor

[Final Chorus] The Purple Malice Was never what they said The Purple Malice Was a woman who was used instead And Elara She was built to be the sword And she is standing in the fracture And her sword will not lift anymore

The Purple Malice And Elara Dawn Two weapons Aimed at each other By the ones who built them both And one of them is watching And one of them is standing And neither of them Chose this at all

[Outro — the quiet after the fracture] She watches Adonpra walk to the window

She watches her look out at the south At the land she is about to defend By doing the thing she does not want to do

And Elara understands in a way she cannot name

that she has been angry at the wrong people for a very long time

The companions outside keep watch

Nobody inside needs to know that she is already broken

Just like Elara

Was already broken

Before she understood why