[**Clock ticking] [Verse 1] Eleven pm, she’s counting ceiling tiles Phone face down, the room already dark Telling herself “just don’t think about it” Which is exactly how she guarantees she will
Pillow on her face, legs that won’t stay still That familiar restlessness, she knows it well Body’s ready but her brain has other plans And it starts
[**Clock ticking] [Pre-Chorus] Not tonight, please not tonight She’s been up since the night before Not tonight, she’s got nothing left to fight with Just tonight
[**Clock ticking] [Chorus][harmonizing voices][harmonizing voices] But there you are at 2am Right on schedule, back again Playing out the conversation She should’ve had before you left Too tired to be angry Too worn out to get it right Just running the same few moments Over and over, through the night
[**Clock ticking] [Verse 2] 2:47, she checks the clock again Calculates the sleep she’d get if she fell under right now Six hours becomes five, becomes four and a half And none of that is happening anyway
She’s back to that one afternoon The thing she almost said but swallowed The version of herself who got it right Doesn’t live here
[**Clock ticking] [Pre-Chorus] Not now, please not right now She’s already been through this Not now, she’s got no more to give it Not now
[**Clock ticking] [Chorus][harmonizing voices][harmonizing voices] But there you are at 3am Right on schedule, back again Playing out the conversation She should’ve had before you left Too tired to be angry Too worn out to get it right Just running the same few moments Over and over, through the night
[**Clock ticking] [Bridge] She knows she’s the one who made the call She knows there’s no one else to place it on But knowing doesn’t stop the carousel At 4am when the room gets very, very still And the only voice she hears Is her own Getting the argument right Three months too late
[**Clock ticking] [Chorus][harmonizing voices][harmonizing voices] But there you are at 4am Right on schedule, back again Playing out the conversation She should’ve had before you left Too tired to be angry Too worn out to get it right Just running the same few moments Over and over, through the night
[**Clock ticking] [Final Chorus][harmonizing voices][harmonizing voices] And there you are at 5am Still here, still in her head The conversation’s finally quiet But she’s too awake to rest Not angry anymore Not sure what she is instead Just tired of being the one Who can’t turn off what’s already said
[**Clock ticking] [Outro] 5:17. The birds start. She hasn’t slept. She closes her eyes anyway. Maybe this time.