[Verse 1] I’ve been carrying this shit for so damn long Let you rewrite my story, let you tell me I was wrong Every piece of me I gave, every dream I put on hold You took it all and called it love while I was losing my soul
I was drowning in your needs, lost inside your storm Forgot what my own voice sounded like, forgot what I was for But something in me finally cracked, something finally broke free And for the first time in a long time… I can finally breathe
[Pre-Chorus] I don’t fucking care anymore, Fuck it - all bets are off I take back what’s mine You won’t change my mind
[Chorus] For the first time in a long time, I see possibilities that were never mine For the first time in a long time, I can move on the fucking past I leave behind I’m broken, yeah, but I’m not defeated I’m scared, but I’m finally breathing For the first time in a long time… I’m fucking choosing me
[Verse 2] I don’t hate you, but I’m done carrying your shit Done apologizing for wanting more than what you wanted most I gave you everything I had, every piece of who I am Now I’m taking back myself from your corrupted clutches you bitch
The nights still hurt, the memories still cut deep But the fog is lifting and I’m starting to see There’s a whole world out there I never got to know And for the first time… I’m ready to go
[Pre-Chorus] This time I don’t give a flying fuck This shit right here’s gotta stop I take back what’s mine You won’t change my mind
[Chorus] For the first time in a long time, I see possibilities that were never mine For the first time in a long time, I can move on the fucking past I leave behind I’m broken, yeah, but I’m not defeated I’m scared, but I’m finally breathing For the first time in a long time… I’m fucking choosing me
[Bridge — raw & building] I don’t know where I’m going, but I know I’m not staying here I don’t know who I’ll be, but I know it won’t be who I was with you All the time I lost, all the chances I missed - I’m taking it all back — no matter what the cost
[Final Chorus — bigger, defiant] For the first time in a long time, I see possibilities that were never mine For the first time in a long time, I can move on the fucking past I leave behind I’m broken, yeah, but I’m not defeated I’m scared, but I’m finally breathing For the first time in a long time… I’m finally fucking free
[Outro] Yeah… for the first time… I’m fucking choosing me